Wednesday, April 20, 2005
.:: Seeing dear for the last time before my tour ::.
This morning woke up at 8.30am coz i set my hp alarm at that time so that i can answer dear's call. Five minutes after i switch on my hp, dear called. And guess what? He overslept.. and he just woke up. Oh noooo.. He should be leaving his home by 8.40am.. and he just woke up. But luckily, he's very quick.. got all the things done by 8.45am. If it's me, i think i can only leave home the fastest in half an hour time. *haha*
After dear finished school, he called and asked if i'm accompaning him to Office Max to laminate the photos. Told dear that my mum wanted to go Ross and buy clothes for my brother so we will go together. Following that, mum and i quickly ate the porridge and get ready. At about 2pm, dear reached and we set off for Office Max. Laminated quite alot of photos.. about 13 of them.. and it's only $1.50. [^_^] It's really worth it.. though they didn't really do a good job out of it.. but we can't really complain coz it's so cheap. Imagine if i were to laminate this size in sg, it will cost me about 6/7bucks. Ok, after that, me helped dear cut the lamination and trim it nicely for him. Then, we went Fry's.. i bought a ty valentine monkey and dear bought a facial set.
After Fry's, dear sent mum and i to Ross and then he went back home to study. I didn't buy anything from Ross today. *hehe* I'm a good girl today. But later when i went to Hallmark, i bought a small sculpture thingy to hang in my future car.. it shows a guy and a girl embraced in love. [^_^] After that, we went home and mum cooked pork chop for dinner.
Today will be the last time i'm seeing dear before i left for my tour. Will miss him coz i will be away for 11days and we are only able to see each other in 2 weeks time.. hopefully bah. But nonetheless, we are happy to see each other today though it's only for a short while. Ok, my brother just reached home and he wanted to use the computer already so i will end off here for today. Goodnight. Dear, i love you.. muacks.
aGnES talking more trash @
10:00 PM
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Read something in one of the christian books and find that God actually speaks to me. He's telling me that i haven't been giving him a portion of undiluted, uninterrupted time listening for his voice.. i didn't make a deliberate effort to spend time with God. The last time i had quiet time with God is many many months back.. when i was attending the Discipleship training (Part2). I should spent a regular time with God, praying and listening to His words. Then, i decided to start having a quiet time from today onwards.. and i thought in my mind "How long should my quiet time be? Should i stick to a schedule of half an hour just like what i have done before or an hour?" At this juncture, God speaks to me once again. He let me read these paragraphs..
A regular time and place. Select a slot on your schedule and a corner of your world, and claim it for God. How much time should you take? As much as you need. Value quality over length. Your time with God should last long enough for you to say what you want and for God to say what he wants. Which leads us to a second tool that you need - an open Bible.
God speaks to us through his Word. The first step in reading the Bible is to ask God to help you understand it. "But the Helper will teach you everything and will cause you to remember all that I told you. This Helper is the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in my name" (John 14:26).
Before reading the Bible, pray. Don't go to Scripture looking for your own idea; go searching for God's. Read the Bible prayerfully. Also, read the Bible carefully. Jesus told us, "Search, and you will find" (Matt. 7:7).
Here is a practical point. Study the Bible a little at a time. God seems to send messengers as he did his manna: one day's portion at a time. He provides "a command here, a command there. A rule here, a rule there" (Isa. 28:10). Choose depth over quantity. Read until a verse "hits" you, then stop and meditate on it. Copy the verse onto a sheet of paper, or write it in your journal, and reflect on it several times.
There is a third tool for having a productive time with God. Not only do we need a regular time and an open Bible, we also need a listening heart. Don't forget the admonition from James: "The man who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and makes a habit of so doing, is not the man who hears and forgets. He puts the law into practice and he wins true happiness" (James 1:25).
We know we are listening to God when what we read in the Bible is what others see in our lives. Paul urged his readers to put into practice when they had learned from him. "What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, do" (Phil. 4:9).
If you want to have a heart like Jesus, let God have you. Spend time listening for him until you receive your lesson for the day - then apply it.
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10:25 PM
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I'm not blogging about what's happening today.. this entry is directed to my dear only. I'm really disappointed with you (but i'm not sad) after reading your yesterday's blog entry.. this is the second time. I'm already quite disappointed when you told me that you will not be going to church on sunday and the upcoming sundays.. until everything is back to normal. Dear.. you shouldn't have gone to church coz of me.. you should go to church coz you want to worship God and to learn more about Him and His words (from sermons). If you are a believer, you shouldn't say that you need not go to church and can have faith in Him. This is wrong. If everybody is like that, then nobody wants to take time off or to get up early just to attend church service. There's another thing which i wanted to point out too.. i really don't understand why you wouldn't want to follow your mum to church last Sunday. I can understand that you wouldn't want to feel alone and loney in church. But with your mum around, you are not alone. Someone like her who didn't want to go to church for quite sometime can volunteer to drive Aunt Michelle to church and sit through the service can tell that she has renew her faith in God. Moreover, she kept asking you to follow her to church last week. I'm glad that God has answered my mum's prayers that Aunt Juliet will go back to church. But.. even if she don't go to church this week, you should go. I mean you shouldn't be afraid to be alone coz Aunt Michelle and others are there.. most importantly, God is with you wherever you are and wherever you go. He wouldn't leave you if you strongly trust and believe in Him. Dear.. i know that you will be unhappy with me after reading so much until this point. But i still have one last thing to tell you.. You once told me that it's wrong for Christians to criticize other Christians... don't you find that you are doing the same thing now? A believer shouldn't criticize Christians too. I'm refering to your yesterday's blog. Dear.. every family has their own rules to follow.. your family doesn't have it, doesn't mean that every family have to follow yours. You can't expect my family to do everything according to your wishes just to please you. Our restrictions have been set up since we were young.. there's nothing wrong with it. No doubt that my parents are very strict.. but it's our responsibility to obey our parents and their instructions. We shouldn't quarrel or go against our parents. It is not right. I know you don't like to hear this but i have to tell you and i hope that you will change your attitude and behavior towards my parents and yours. Respect them coz they are your elders and most importantly.. they love you more than i do. My parents are not restricting your doings.. they can't do that at all coz they are not your parents.. they can only set down rules for me.. so they are only restricting me.. not your rights. You should try to accept my family rules.. even if your family has rules, i still need to oblige to them coz they are my elders. Ok, that's all for today. I'm not reprimanding you.. just reminding you that you made mistakes. There's no doubt that everyone makes mistakes in our life but we should learn through mistakes and not let them repeat again. I'm not blogging this to affect your mood or your studies.. i just hope that you will not let your emotions/feelings overcome those important stuffs in life (eg: studies). I'm telling you all these coz i care and love you.. if i don't, i wouldn't even bother telling you. I don't go round interfering other people's business. Ok.. cheer up.. *smile* don't be sad anymore.. everything is over for today.
There's a passage from a book which i just read.. and i would like to share it with anyone who reads my blog.
God loves you just the way you are, but he refuses to leave you that way.
Where did we get the idea we can't change? From whence come statements such as, "It's just my nature to worry." or, "I'll always be pessimistic. I'm just that way," or, "I have a bad temper. I can't help the way I react"? Who says? Would we make similar statements about our bodies? "It's just my nature to have a broken leg. I can't do anything about it." Of course not. If our bodies malfunction, we seek help. Shouldn't we do the same with our hearts? Shouldn't we do the same with our hearts? Shouldn't we seek aid for our sour attitudes? Can't we request treatment for our selfish tirades? Of course we can. Jesus can change our hearts. He wants us to have a heart like his.
Be gentle and ready to forgive;
never hold grudges. Remember, the Lord
forgave you, so you must forgive others.
COLOSSIANS 3:13
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8:56 PM
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Had a good sleep last night till about 10.30am this morning. Chatted with dear while making breakfast for myself. Then had lunch and went swimming around 2.15pm.. guess who i met there? Dear! *haha* Saw him walking to Aunt Michelle's house and then he also came swimming. But after awhile, we need to leave as daddy said we need to go to library to return our storybooks. But never mind, able to see dear today.. i'm actually quite happy already. *smile* After library, we went New China for buffet dinner.. the food there is really not bad. Following that, we went off to church for the 6.30pm service. Later we went Walmart and bought a christian songs cd and groceries. Oh ya, this is the first time I'm attending church service on Sat. Today's sermon is on the second part of Salvation.. missed the first part coz didn't go church last week. Kind of regretted not going to church with dear last week. Dear did asked us whether want him to drive mum and I to church but mum turned the offer down. It's really not dear's fault.
Below is a song sung in church just now that i like it very much so i copied it down.
Perfect submission
All is at rest
I in my Savior
Am happy and blest
Watching and waiting
Looking above
Filled with His goodness
Lost in His love.
This is my story
This is my song
Praising my Savior
All the day long
This is my story
This is my song
Praising my Savior
All the day long
Perfect submission
Perfect delight
Visions of rapture
Now burst on my sight
Angels ascending
Bring from above
Echoes of mercy
Whispers of love
This is my story
This is my song
Praising my Savior
All the day long
This is my story
This is my song
Praising my Savior
All the day long
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10:52 PM
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Friday, April 15, 2005
.:: Driver License *yeah* ::.
Didn't sleep well through the night.. able to sleep at only 1am.. then woke up at 5am.. slept until 6.20am when my dad woke me up. Surprisingly, i wasn't that sleepy though it's like i didn't really sleep through the night. Had my breakfast, then bathe and set off for MVD at about 7.45am.. reached there 8am.. and the doors of MVD just opened. I was just in time.. [^_^] But there are already a number of people in queue. But nonetheless, i didn't wait very long for my turn.. then the person did all the paperwork, took my photo, and i'm done! *yeah* All in all, it only took about 45mins. [^_^] Really glad that everything goes on smoothly coz i need to be back early to go out with dear. Actually my parents wanted to go to the library but it opens only at 10am on Friday. Lucky me.. or else i'm sure going to be late for my appointment.
Came home then called dear at about 9.15am.. guess what? Dear just woke up the moment i called him. *hahah* He jumped out of bed to answer my call. Asked dear if he wanted to go out earlier.. and he said okie. [^_^] So instead of 10.30am appointment, we went out at 10am. Ok, the first destination we went is the Hallmark behind Rockridge. I went there to redeem my free gift - mini heart frame. As for dear.. he bought 10 stamps from there. Hmm.. i'm going to buy stamps from there next time.. coz the design are really nice.. maybe i should start a new hobby of collecting USA37cents stamps. [^_^] Not a bad idea.. *hehe* The second destination is Tucson Mall.. dear wanted to go there and check if his facial cleanser has arrived. But it still didn't arrive after two weeks. Then, we went to Origins coz mum asked me to buy the moisturizer. Apart from that, we also went to American Eagles Outfitters but i didn't find anything suitable so didn't make any purchase. After that, we set off for a shopping centre with a castle entrance.. but i don't know the name of it. There's like only Macy's, Jc Penny and a few small shops over there.. it's kind of deserted and there's nothing much over there.. so i won't be going there again. Our last destination is Park Place. We went to the foodcourt and had pizza for lunch. Dear's pizza is like so oily.. you can actually see the oil oozed out when you place the fork in it.. but it's really delicious though it's kind of fattening.. never mind, it's alright to eat these kind of food once in a while. After lunch at about 2plus, we went to Eyemaster to change the nose pads for my spects.. then went shopping. Hmm, we went to Abercrombie & Fitch, Hallmark, New York & Company and Forever 21. We bought a drink from Orange Julius again.. but then this time we bought orange juice instead of peaches & cream smoothies. The orange is really not bad.. [^_^] Actually i wanted to buy a unique green skirt($29.90) from Abercrombie which is having a sale as said from the website but i couldn't find it at the store. There's a black coin purse which i saw at New York & Co. but didn't buy it.. kind of regretted not buying it. *haha* Mum said i should buy it.. haiz.. never mind, maybe next time when i see it, then i buy if there's still stock. *hahah* Ok, i ended up buying only a keychain for my mum from hallmark.. so i spent less than 10bucks today. I was wondering how come i wouldn't spend much when i'm shopping with dear.. hahah.. if i were to be with my mum, i think i would spent at least 50bucks. *hahah* I still can't figure out the reason.. hahah..
aGnES talking more trash @
10:59 PM
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//120405Dear came over this morning at about 10.45am to pass me his history text so that i'm able to find the answers for his history exam on this Thursday. Dear went off at about 11.20am.. then Aunt Michelle came at around 12.30pm to pass us the book needed for prayer meeting.. chatted with her for awhile and let her see my scrapbooks. Did two questions for dear.. then felt kind of tired.. so mum and i went shopping. We went a few destinations.. Famous Footwear, Pier1 Imports, Office Max, Fry's & Ross. All in all, i spent about 20bucks.. bought candles, Cross pen refil and some snacks. Came back home and then dear came my house again. *haha* This time he came to collect his history text back so that he can study at night. Since i had nothing much to do at night, i changed my blogskin as well as Damien's blogskin. Hope that he'll like it.. coz i think that skin is quite suitable for guys. *smile*
//130405Mum felt that we didn't had time to shop at Ross yesterday so we decided to go there again today. We went Hallmark.. i bought a birthday card for Gina and a box of love quotes cards.. i also paid half for a book on "Quotable Mum".. so i end up spending 15bucks there. We managed to get a free perpectual calandar coz we spent more than 35bucks in total. After Hallmark, we went Ross.. i bought shortbread cookies, a small basket to put my accessories and spects, a body lotion and a set of bikinis.. mum also bought a set.. we can't wait to go to the swimming pool this weekend. *hehe* Actually we can't swim.. so we are going there to play with water only. *shhh* *hahah* We met Aunt Isabelle at Ross so she offered to give us a lift home. *smile* Thanks alot Aunt. Came back and bathe, then had dinner.. coz i got night driving lessons at 7pm.. waited for David for half an hour coz he thought that my lesson starts at 7.30pm. Night driving is kind of different.. coz you won't be able to see from the side mirrors whether are you in the lane coz the lighting of the street is not good. There aren't many street lamps like sg. I drove all the way on Oracle until the highway and i turn left.. then i saw Pima Downtown Campus and University of Arizona. Wow.. drove for about 1 and a half hours wor.. haven't drive for so long before.
//140405Yeah.. me going to get my driving license tomorrow morning. David gave me the paperwork necessary to take a license at DMV.. there's no more paperwork to be done. *yeah* After driving, came home, had lunch and took a bath.. then went Ross (bought a white skirt - 23bucks) and Hallmark. The white skirt is not branded but don't know why it's so ex.. saw a Tommy Hilfiger skirt and it only costs 2 bucks more. *haha* Didn't buy it coz it doesn't have my size.. it's kinda too big for me since it's size 2. Bought a card and a christian book from Hallmark.. today again spent more than 35bucks (i only spent 22bucks).. so we can have another free gift. But we forgot to bring the coupon along so i'm going to redeem the free gift either tomorrow or during the weekends. Going to sleep soon coz have to wake up early to go DMV tml so that i can get home early and go out with dear *smile*.. daddy said leaving at 7.30am which means i have to wake up at 6.30am. *haiz* Oh ya, saw Damien's blog and knew that he saw the new blogskin that i changed for him. *hehe* Damien, no need to thank me.. no problem one.. glad that you like that design. *smile* Ok everyone, goodnight and sweet dreams. *yawn*
aGnES talking more trash @
10:23 PM
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Monday, April 11, 2005
.:: Back aching.. getting old ::.
I broke my record of sitting in front of the computer since i came here. I was online since i wake up till now.. except for lunch and dinner breaks. I've been searching for blogskins for 80% of the time. Mum found one that she like, and i helped her change her blogskin. I really like the Heroic Rendezvous characters.. there's a shop in Wisma and i went there twice. The things over there are quite ex.. i bought a set of 10 bookmarks for $16.. i didn't buy the t-shirt coz they are selling it at a minimum of 60 bucks. That's really expensive for something that is not really a branded item. Have been looking for blogskins for the whole day but i still can't find one that i really like except for the black one that i wanted to change for Damien's blog. Damien, do you mind having the same blogskin as mine? *hahah* Just joking! Wah.. my back really pain wor.. after sitting in front of the computer for so long. I'm really getting old.. oh nooo... hahah..
Below is something which i found on the web and i wanted to dedicate it to my dear.. [^_^]In life, there are very rare changes that you'll meet someone you love AND love you in return.
So, once you have found it, don't ever let it go.
True love only comes once in a lifetime, so take it as it goes and enjoy every bit of it while it is still burning strong.
A PERSON like you is a gift; that paints a smile in my HEART that will stay in me not for a while but for a [ LIFETIME ]
If time never stand still, i'll never leave your side.
It maybe too hard for me at times that you will see of, but in my HEART, you'll always be FOUND.
Love can make you happy although often it hurts.
BUT love is special if you give it what it's worth.
LOVE is not wondering how long it'll last BUT how beautiful you can make it GROW.
LOVE is a gift; not an obligation, follow your HEART and always trust the person you LOVE.
Walk with me; when your HEART needs company, take my hands; when you feel all alone, turn to me; when you need someone to lean on, i'll always be there...
If you wake up one day and were to ask to have a wish, what would it be?
Mine would be that our relationship would last until you see an apple in an orange tree.
Life is not a rehersal, we live only once.
It is not by chance nor coincidence, it is predestined that we meet; therefore I treasure you alot.
I Love You.. Muacks.
aGnES talking more trash @
9:40 PM
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